Hmm. A bit of a tough question for a Sunday evening when the working week is fast approaching! But it’s something I’m considering at the moment in my WIP. A couple of weeks ago in my ‘Thursday’s Children’ blog entry, I was talking about experiences we have at school. Nearly everyone said in their comments on it that they’d struggled at school.
My character Anna is still grappling with the demons from her past and hasn’t got over the nightmare of her school days. It got me wondering if that is unrealistic – doesn’t everyone come to terms with their difficulties at school, and surely she should be over it by now? But then if you look at it from another angle, I think it’s fair to say that we’re all affected by our past in one way or another. It may not be the case that we had a tough time at school, but I’m sure we all have events in our lives that have helped to shape and mould us into the people we are today.
And this can inform so much of our lives, and for us authors our writing. I definitely draw on my past as at least partial inspiration for my writing. Without it my work would be colourless. I could say I’m over my past but am I really? Is it more the case that I’ve accepted it rather than I’m fighting against it and that I’m not trying to deny it? I must say I’m worlds away from where I was 18 years ago as a person, but then I’m sure we could all say that. I will say that I’m happy in my life now, never happier. I know I’m blessed in that respect because not everyone can say that.
So do we get over our past? Maybe, maybe not. But I believe it is possible to be reconciled with our past selves and to keep looking forward.
As always I welcome your comments!